I was on Atkins- then I stopped. Now I'm hardly "doing" anything. I try not to pig out and that's about it. I try to walk a little extra too. I kinda figure I'll be working really hard for 2 years so I'm being nice to myself right now- wrong attitude? Possibly. I still have a few months left of my "Dr. Assisted diet" before I can get approval for the weight reduction surgery.
My last Dr visit said I lost 2 lbs.
Still no bracelet- but I didn't gain.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Accomplishments
Today I'm congratulating myself on all of my accomplishments. Some are small, some a little bigger.
1. I didn't eat that piece of cake that I was going to.
2. I got caught up on laundry (well, is ever truly caught up? no, but I'm so close)
3. I tackled my sons bedroom- its not done- but we made great progress so far!
4. I cleaned the kitchen and the laundry room.
I did take a lot of breaks. I really hope that my tiredness will go away from losing weight and getting into shape again. That would be nice.
I took some vitamins today- something that I don't always remember to do- but have to start to. I didn't do my food journal today- but I can write in what I ate tomorrow. I hate having a food journal. It's completely retarded to me to do that. OK, now I'm getting off topic.
Tomorrow is my visit with the shrink- not sure if she's an assistant or what - but the guy is the leader and she's definitely in a secondary kind of a role. She seems pretty nice- not shrink-like to me. It's all part of the process for getting approved for surgery.
Oh, I did find out yesterday (or 2 days ago now that its past midnight) that my regular Dr. had the gastric bypass too- about 4 years ago- that's a huge bonus to me. I like my Dr. I hate the staff that works with her, except for one of the nurses- she's nice- the rest are morons- especially the receptionists.
Wow, way off topic- but its not a novel I'm writing- just my thoughts and journey....and this journey has just begun.
1. I didn't eat that piece of cake that I was going to.
2. I got caught up on laundry (well, is ever truly caught up? no, but I'm so close)
3. I tackled my sons bedroom- its not done- but we made great progress so far!
4. I cleaned the kitchen and the laundry room.
I did take a lot of breaks. I really hope that my tiredness will go away from losing weight and getting into shape again. That would be nice.
I took some vitamins today- something that I don't always remember to do- but have to start to. I didn't do my food journal today- but I can write in what I ate tomorrow. I hate having a food journal. It's completely retarded to me to do that. OK, now I'm getting off topic.
Tomorrow is my visit with the shrink- not sure if she's an assistant or what - but the guy is the leader and she's definitely in a secondary kind of a role. She seems pretty nice- not shrink-like to me. It's all part of the process for getting approved for surgery.
Oh, I did find out yesterday (or 2 days ago now that its past midnight) that my regular Dr. had the gastric bypass too- about 4 years ago- that's a huge bonus to me. I like my Dr. I hate the staff that works with her, except for one of the nurses- she's nice- the rest are morons- especially the receptionists.
Wow, way off topic- but its not a novel I'm writing- just my thoughts and journey....and this journey has just begun.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Some people need to just shut up
I'm in a bad mood. I had a rough day (cat escaped and I had to chase him down- he finally returned, on and on with all kinds of annoyances).
Then I get a phone call. A most annoying phone call. It's purpose was nice enough- an invite to somewhere on Thursday... but Thursday I have one of a zillion appointments with Dr.s regarding my surgery and the whole process. It's in Akron and that's a 1-1/2 hr drive for me each way and its a 2 hour appointment- so that means that I wasn't able to make it for the invitation on Thursday. Here's where I get annoyed: I got asked what I was doing, I'm not telling anyone at this time- or maybe ever. It's none of their business. When I wouldn't say what it was they tried to guess. OK, now you're REALLY testing my patience-- and after the horrible day I had today is NOT the day for this.
The thing then got worse as the "guess" was really something that I had confided in with someone (their mother) and swore her to secrecy about. No one else should know about it if she kept their mouth shut. But did she? NO, So I'm double mad.
I'm so completely over the top angry right now. And what am I about to do? Have a piece of cake. Because I want to.
I never claimed to be perfect.
Then I get a phone call. A most annoying phone call. It's purpose was nice enough- an invite to somewhere on Thursday... but Thursday I have one of a zillion appointments with Dr.s regarding my surgery and the whole process. It's in Akron and that's a 1-1/2 hr drive for me each way and its a 2 hour appointment- so that means that I wasn't able to make it for the invitation on Thursday. Here's where I get annoyed: I got asked what I was doing, I'm not telling anyone at this time- or maybe ever. It's none of their business. When I wouldn't say what it was they tried to guess. OK, now you're REALLY testing my patience-- and after the horrible day I had today is NOT the day for this.
The thing then got worse as the "guess" was really something that I had confided in with someone (their mother) and swore her to secrecy about. No one else should know about it if she kept their mouth shut. But did she? NO, So I'm double mad.
I'm so completely over the top angry right now. And what am I about to do? Have a piece of cake. Because I want to.
I never claimed to be perfect.
Weigh in and a little bad news.
In order to be approved for weight reduction surgery, the insurance company requires that you have a 6 month Dr. Supervised weight loss plan. I started in August, then was not able to meet with her at all in September. This means that I might have to start all over with my 6 months -starting from today. Not good. I'm still going to try to go from August, but I know they might make me go an extra 2 months.
Last week, we went on vacation and my whole diet went out the window- completely out the window. I weighed myself at home and it said I gained massive amounts of weight. I was nervous about going to my weigh in. When I got there, it did say I gained weight, but it was 3 lbs. 3 I can deal with. My scale was about 12 lbs higher than the Dr.s scale was. (no wonder I was freaking out!)
In an attempt to also 'make up' for the September miss- I'm trying to go to more weigh in's now-- like weekly or bi-weekly...maybe if I go more they will overlook one tiny month missed?? I hear they are super picky- so I'm going to tell myself that I'm starting NOW and not 2 months ago.
I will say that my scale made me nervous into thinking I was going to have to re-name this blog to 14 bracelets. Yikes!
Last week, we went on vacation and my whole diet went out the window- completely out the window. I weighed myself at home and it said I gained massive amounts of weight. I was nervous about going to my weigh in. When I got there, it did say I gained weight, but it was 3 lbs. 3 I can deal with. My scale was about 12 lbs higher than the Dr.s scale was. (no wonder I was freaking out!)
In an attempt to also 'make up' for the September miss- I'm trying to go to more weigh in's now-- like weekly or bi-weekly...maybe if I go more they will overlook one tiny month missed?? I hear they are super picky- so I'm going to tell myself that I'm starting NOW and not 2 months ago.
I will say that my scale made me nervous into thinking I was going to have to re-name this blog to 14 bracelets. Yikes!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Introduction
I've decided to make a huge change in my life. It's going to be really really really huge.
Well, speaking of really really really huge-- I've put on weight.... lots of it in the past 15 years. I've been sick of the weight for a while and have tried on and off with various weight loss programs, diet, exercise, etc-- and I always gain it back - plus 5-10 more than I started with before the diet.
Frustrated and discouraged (for a while now)- I made a choice: For weight reduction surgery. I really am not a fan of the Roux en Y (gastric bypass) surgery. That has lots of risks and you are stuck with absorption issues with vitamins and nutrients. I know lots of people with massive hair loss, etc from it-- so, pass.
I then looked into the Lap Band (there are several brand names for the band, Lap Band is just one of them) and I have a friend that had the procedure. She let me tag along with her to see the maintenance of the band - which there's a lot of it.... While I was there, the nurse talked to me about a newer procedure called "The Sleeve". After looking at all of my options and talking to another girl that had the Sleeve, I really think this is the way to go.
I called the Cleveland Clinic and they told me that my insurance would only cover $15k of the procedure and that I'd be out of pocket $23k. I cried. I don't have $23k to spend on it- so- I decided to keep shopping. I'm a huge cheapskate and can spot a deal with anything- so I started looking and came across Akron Hospital. Their procedure costs $23k and that's only if you are self paying-- with my insurance (at least how it is now in 2010) it would cover all of the costs with nothing out of pocket for me (minus co-pays and deductibles, which I can totally handle). A big sigh of relief came over me.
I spoke with Kellie (surgeon's secretary and right hand woman)- who's completely awesome and really has helped me through the process. She actually had the Roux En Y herself from the surgeon she works for. She's not what you call 'skinny' but she's not dangerously overweight either. She looks a little chubby (although way smaller than I am currently). I think it's been about 3 years since her procedure, maybe more.
So- this is my journey. This blog. I'm calling it 13 bracelets because I decided that for every 10 lbs. of weight loss, I'm going to treat myself to a new bracelet. I'll wear them all at once. I haven't decided what kind of bracelet(s) they'll be yet- but will figure that out soon enough.
I have 13 bracelets worth of weight to lose-- (yikes) and then I'll be at my ideal weight.
I'll update on my journey as I have time - I have a lot going on in my life, but it's important that I do update this regularly and keep track of my feelings and progress- it'll help until the surgery date- which is still yet to be determined- but HOPEFULLY early spring of 2011. (more on that later)
Well, speaking of really really really huge-- I've put on weight.... lots of it in the past 15 years. I've been sick of the weight for a while and have tried on and off with various weight loss programs, diet, exercise, etc-- and I always gain it back - plus 5-10 more than I started with before the diet.
Frustrated and discouraged (for a while now)- I made a choice: For weight reduction surgery. I really am not a fan of the Roux en Y (gastric bypass) surgery. That has lots of risks and you are stuck with absorption issues with vitamins and nutrients. I know lots of people with massive hair loss, etc from it-- so, pass.
I then looked into the Lap Band (there are several brand names for the band, Lap Band is just one of them) and I have a friend that had the procedure. She let me tag along with her to see the maintenance of the band - which there's a lot of it.... While I was there, the nurse talked to me about a newer procedure called "The Sleeve". After looking at all of my options and talking to another girl that had the Sleeve, I really think this is the way to go.
I called the Cleveland Clinic and they told me that my insurance would only cover $15k of the procedure and that I'd be out of pocket $23k. I cried. I don't have $23k to spend on it- so- I decided to keep shopping. I'm a huge cheapskate and can spot a deal with anything- so I started looking and came across Akron Hospital. Their procedure costs $23k and that's only if you are self paying-- with my insurance (at least how it is now in 2010) it would cover all of the costs with nothing out of pocket for me (minus co-pays and deductibles, which I can totally handle). A big sigh of relief came over me.
I spoke with Kellie (surgeon's secretary and right hand woman)- who's completely awesome and really has helped me through the process. She actually had the Roux En Y herself from the surgeon she works for. She's not what you call 'skinny' but she's not dangerously overweight either. She looks a little chubby (although way smaller than I am currently). I think it's been about 3 years since her procedure, maybe more.
So- this is my journey. This blog. I'm calling it 13 bracelets because I decided that for every 10 lbs. of weight loss, I'm going to treat myself to a new bracelet. I'll wear them all at once. I haven't decided what kind of bracelet(s) they'll be yet- but will figure that out soon enough.
I have 13 bracelets worth of weight to lose-- (yikes) and then I'll be at my ideal weight.
I'll update on my journey as I have time - I have a lot going on in my life, but it's important that I do update this regularly and keep track of my feelings and progress- it'll help until the surgery date- which is still yet to be determined- but HOPEFULLY early spring of 2011. (more on that later)
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