I might have actually had the last of my tests for the pre-op stuff!
Friday: I had the pulminary function test-- that consisted of getting my blood drawn from my artery in my wrist (OUCH) and then breathing into a bunch of plastic tubes while a computer measured my lung capacity. I think that went fine. There was drama getting into the appt- they didn't have the Dr.s orders for the test- and their office was closed (Good Friday). I was also extremely late getting there- I got a little lost... it all worked out ok though.
Monday: I had an ultrasound and a scan of my organs that are all around my stomach. That all seemed fine too- they aren't allowed to give you any information on the results- a Dr has to review them and write a report or something-- anyways... I think they went fine. I was so tired from that appt. I worked til 3AM- got home at 4- didn't fall asleep for real and then up at 6 and out the door by 7 to make my 8:30 appt. That one was much easier to find.
Today, I got a call from the sleep center and they said I need a CPAP machine and that they are referring me to someone and they will be in touch with me asap.
I'm also looking into colon irrigation. I think it may help me shed a couple of pounds before my mega huge weigh in on Tuesday and the scheduling of my surgery date. I need all the help I can get! I think that might give me the edge I need to be the weight I need to be. I've always wanted to do that and I think after surgery I won't be able to. I don't mean I wanted to like it sounds so fun- just that it might help me feel better.
I'm really hoping the last of all the tests was Monday- that would be great! Unless there is something wrong, it should be the last of everything. Yay.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
NINE
I was super nervous about gaining any weight back. I had my period (sorry TMI) and I ALWAYS gain 5 lbs from that... always. I got on the scale today and it said 249.6 which means in the Drs office it will say 254. I get weighed in next Tuesday for the BIG appt. I also get weighed in tomorrow too- but I don't think it counts as heavy as the other weigh in does. So being close to the 253 that I was last week is a good thing. I've been eating OK- not perfect- but not terrible either. My food journal however-- that's another story- I haven't been doing it -- at all. I need to catch it up and they want 'more detail' Ugh. I hate that part of it all.
Dr. Malec and I finally caught up the other day about my lab results- all was fine- but my thyroid was still off so she increased my medicine to 50. I wanted that to happen- I haven't been less tired - I've been MORE tired since taking it. I need to get the exhaustion issue under control. Maybe CPAP will help that. I don't know when I will be getting my machine just yet. I assume that will be this week sometime.
NINE DAYS til my big huge appt. 9... wow. I'll have a surgery date (hoping) in just 9 days. I hope he can get me in quick too- like within 3 weeks- that would be awesome.
I also emailed a person in Mentor that has a spa with colon irrigation. Its pricey- but I think I wanna try that and see if that will help me shed a few lbs right before the appt on May 3rd. I don't know if I'll actually go thru with that or not-- but I'm considering it.
Jim at Paul's work was let go-- we are a tad nervous about money - they just without warning got rid of him so would they just do that to Paul too? We hope not. His job kinda sucks - but its money coming in... I've been nervous about that too. If he got laid off fired whatever I'd have to go back to full time during the time I really need to be healing and working out like crazy... ugh- lets hope it doesn't happen.
Dr. Malec and I finally caught up the other day about my lab results- all was fine- but my thyroid was still off so she increased my medicine to 50. I wanted that to happen- I haven't been less tired - I've been MORE tired since taking it. I need to get the exhaustion issue under control. Maybe CPAP will help that. I don't know when I will be getting my machine just yet. I assume that will be this week sometime.
NINE DAYS til my big huge appt. 9... wow. I'll have a surgery date (hoping) in just 9 days. I hope he can get me in quick too- like within 3 weeks- that would be awesome.
I also emailed a person in Mentor that has a spa with colon irrigation. Its pricey- but I think I wanna try that and see if that will help me shed a few lbs right before the appt on May 3rd. I don't know if I'll actually go thru with that or not-- but I'm considering it.
Jim at Paul's work was let go-- we are a tad nervous about money - they just without warning got rid of him so would they just do that to Paul too? We hope not. His job kinda sucks - but its money coming in... I've been nervous about that too. If he got laid off fired whatever I'd have to go back to full time during the time I really need to be healing and working out like crazy... ugh- lets hope it doesn't happen.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Bruise city!
From all the bloodwork I had a week ago and then IV last Friday- I have 3 massive bruises on my arms and hand still... I bruise very easily and they were very aggressive with poking me with needles. Today I hope that I can talk to the Dr.s offices and see my results for things so far and try to get some more appointments in for the next steps.
I also took a laxative last night. It helped a bit... I also started my period too-- so that's why I was having so many cravings and eating more than normal. Stupid period. Today my weight is a little high. (256) but it should drop in a few days on its own and I need to exercise and all that to keep it below 253 for the next weigh in- which I guess can be at any time. Ugh! That's a little nerve racking.
I also took a laxative last night. It helped a bit... I also started my period too-- so that's why I was having so many cravings and eating more than normal. Stupid period. Today my weight is a little high. (256) but it should drop in a few days on its own and I need to exercise and all that to keep it below 253 for the next weigh in- which I guess can be at any time. Ugh! That's a little nerve racking.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I hope I'm not packing on the pounds...
I've been eating terrible the past few days... a little salad, a lot of not salad... I need to turn it around again. I can't gain an ounce otherwise they will postpone my surgery date. I don't want that!
I got a call from Kellie today asking what days I would be available for follow up visits for her to schedule for me... I said ANY day or time... she said OK I'll call you back with the appointment time... and then never called me back tonight, I hope she calls tomorrow! Weird.
I also haven't gone in days. I need to take care of that somehow. Stupid slow moving pipes. I don't like them.
I went to another pre surgical meeting again last night and part of a support group meeting. I was the smallest person at the intro meeting- which made me feel good. I also had a complement the other day 'you're going in for surgery? You don't look big enough for that.' Well, thank you- but I AM. I want to be skinny again- not fluffy, chubby, fat, big, or any of that.
I got a call from Kellie today asking what days I would be available for follow up visits for her to schedule for me... I said ANY day or time... she said OK I'll call you back with the appointment time... and then never called me back tonight, I hope she calls tomorrow! Weird.
I also haven't gone in days. I need to take care of that somehow. Stupid slow moving pipes. I don't like them.
I went to another pre surgical meeting again last night and part of a support group meeting. I was the smallest person at the intro meeting- which made me feel good. I also had a complement the other day 'you're going in for surgery? You don't look big enough for that.' Well, thank you- but I AM. I want to be skinny again- not fluffy, chubby, fat, big, or any of that.
Monday, April 18, 2011
More updates
I talked to Kellie today and she said they were confused by my FMLA paperwork request... they normally don't do FMLA stuff til after a surgery date is determined. So I told her to do two sets of paperwork then- one for intermittent and one for continuous after the surgery. Just fill out my paperwork chumps!
I have an appt still on May 3rd with Dr. Chlysta and before then they have to run more tests. Upper GI ultrasound, pulminary function test (breathing test).
She said if my weight is still good and if all of my test results come back good and they have openings then I will be scheduled for surgery. I asked if everything was good will it be before the 4th of July-- she said yes. OK- that's really all I care about- I just not dragging on and on and on.
Tonight is the sleep apnea CPAP machine fitting. I also think I might have hit my $5,000 for surgery thing already... I had the Sleep study- which was about $2,500 of the cost- then I had the scope- which is another who knows how much $$-- so I should've hit my max $5,000 out of pocket by now. Hmm, I think I'll call them to find out about that. I'm curious.
I have an appt still on May 3rd with Dr. Chlysta and before then they have to run more tests. Upper GI ultrasound, pulminary function test (breathing test).
She said if my weight is still good and if all of my test results come back good and they have openings then I will be scheduled for surgery. I asked if everything was good will it be before the 4th of July-- she said yes. OK- that's really all I care about- I just not dragging on and on and on.
Tonight is the sleep apnea CPAP machine fitting. I also think I might have hit my $5,000 for surgery thing already... I had the Sleep study- which was about $2,500 of the cost- then I had the scope- which is another who knows how much $$-- so I should've hit my max $5,000 out of pocket by now. Hmm, I think I'll call them to find out about that. I'm curious.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Bracelet one pics
Holy zits, Batman! Also nice messy background... Me and the boy on April 17.
I really wanted to take pics at the BEGINNING of the night when my hair was bouncy and curly still- but some idiot didn't load the card in the camera.... (hint not me or the kid) so these are what we get- end of the night tired shots with fallen hair. Oh well. 10 down from the last pics- not really any difference yet....
Note to self: this super comfy bra gives no support- wear a different bra for future pics. Oh it has light padding too -- so it looks like my boobs are all droopy to the floor (they aren't).
I really wanted to take pics at the BEGINNING of the night when my hair was bouncy and curly still- but some idiot didn't load the card in the camera.... (hint not me or the kid) so these are what we get- end of the night tired shots with fallen hair. Oh well. 10 down from the last pics- not really any difference yet....
Note to self: this super comfy bra gives no support- wear a different bra for future pics. Oh it has light padding too -- so it looks like my boobs are all droopy to the floor (they aren't).
I GOT APPROVED!!!!!!!
So Friday I was all out of it from the anesthesia because Paul 'claims' he told me that I was approved for surgery--- but I totally didn't hear that- then I was telling for the first time ever tonight my in laws about it (a decision that I battled with for a long time) and Paul chimes in and says 'you were approved' WHAT?!
I never knew before tonight otherwise I'd be jumping up and down all weekend. My husband is a tard. Anyways- that aside, I was approved!!!!! YAY!
I never knew before tonight otherwise I'd be jumping up and down all weekend. My husband is a tard. Anyways- that aside, I was approved!!!!! YAY!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Ouchie today
I had my 'surgery' yesterday. It was just a scope down my throat to see into my stomach. I got pics of it too- which I will post at some point- just I'm a little tired today. It hurts to swallow today. Not horrible pain- but the first time I felt it I was thinking what the ---? I slept in again today. I was really drowsie from all the stuff from yesterday- we all got up really early and then drove to Akron then got weighed in-- which I will say I MADE MY WEIGHT GOAL!! And then on to the surgery center- which is about 15 miles away... Dr. Chlysta was running late with an 'emergency' and we had to wait an extra 2 hours. We left the house at 7AM and got home at about 5PM. We were all beat!
I am super excited that I made my weight- that was very exciting to me. I made it with 0.2 lbs to spare. Talk about cutting it close! I wore shorts (despite it being cold out) and the lightest shirt and underwear I could find- no socks. I trimmed my hair, shaved everywhere, took a shower the night before, gargled, blew my nose, peed before the weigh in, took a water pill. trimmed my nails, on and on- anything I could think of to lose a gram even- and whew! I just made it. I was so excited in the Dr.s office on the scale.
Today I have all kinds of bruises-- I was treated like a pin cushion two days in a row. One day for blood work and the next trying to get an IV into me. I have a fairly high tolerance for pain so I don't complain- but I did make some faces that one of the nurses noticed- I have a very expressive face. I can't really hide anything with it.
When I told Dr. Chlysta about the weight being made he said 'YES!' in a very excited way- I've never seen him get excited about something before. (maybe he was thinking now he can afford that new boat... ha ha)
Today I feel groggy- although lately I feel groggy alot. I am trying to get my Synthroid increased to 50 to see if that will help or not. I hope it does. I'm tired of being tired.
Monday I have another sleep study/fitting for my CPAP machine. I have sleep apnea- woo hoo. The good news though is I don't have to go to work again til next Friday. I can handle all this nonsense if it means not having to go into work for a week. :)
They still haven't heard back on the status of the approvals from the insurance company yet- but I partly blame Kelly for that- she called them at 5PM on a Friday and no one was there so she left a message. Um, OK.... so maybe Monday I'll know something. I found out that they (Dr's office) don't sell the Unjury, so I have to buy that online -but I did get some of the vitamins from them.
So, next week should be a big week of finding out lots of things. I still can't gain any weight at all- in fact they want me to keep losing... so I need to be careful- but I hope its all good news next week. I need some good news.
I am super excited that I made my weight- that was very exciting to me. I made it with 0.2 lbs to spare. Talk about cutting it close! I wore shorts (despite it being cold out) and the lightest shirt and underwear I could find- no socks. I trimmed my hair, shaved everywhere, took a shower the night before, gargled, blew my nose, peed before the weigh in, took a water pill. trimmed my nails, on and on- anything I could think of to lose a gram even- and whew! I just made it. I was so excited in the Dr.s office on the scale.
Today I have all kinds of bruises-- I was treated like a pin cushion two days in a row. One day for blood work and the next trying to get an IV into me. I have a fairly high tolerance for pain so I don't complain- but I did make some faces that one of the nurses noticed- I have a very expressive face. I can't really hide anything with it.
When I told Dr. Chlysta about the weight being made he said 'YES!' in a very excited way- I've never seen him get excited about something before. (maybe he was thinking now he can afford that new boat... ha ha)
Today I feel groggy- although lately I feel groggy alot. I am trying to get my Synthroid increased to 50 to see if that will help or not. I hope it does. I'm tired of being tired.
Monday I have another sleep study/fitting for my CPAP machine. I have sleep apnea- woo hoo. The good news though is I don't have to go to work again til next Friday. I can handle all this nonsense if it means not having to go into work for a week. :)
They still haven't heard back on the status of the approvals from the insurance company yet- but I partly blame Kelly for that- she called them at 5PM on a Friday and no one was there so she left a message. Um, OK.... so maybe Monday I'll know something. I found out that they (Dr's office) don't sell the Unjury, so I have to buy that online -but I did get some of the vitamins from them.
So, next week should be a big week of finding out lots of things. I still can't gain any weight at all- in fact they want me to keep losing... so I need to be careful- but I hope its all good news next week. I need some good news.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Possible goal.. Will this work?
So- my big weight loss after surgery is supposed to last for 6 months or so- that's when you can lose the maximum amount of weight - you can still lose later- but its a little more difficult. I'd like to attempt to lose all the weight in those 6 months! I know there's no magic switch that at 6 months a bell rings and signs that times up or anything like that - but I have a plan to try to take advantage of it--
by clumping weeks into 2 at a time - I can adjust how much I can hope to lose per week to hit about 100 lbs weight loss total (my plan actually does 113) and this would assume that I lose a couple of lbs more before the big date.
Weeks 1+2 20 lbs. 6 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 3+4 10 lbs. 6 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 5+6 8 lbs. 7 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 7+8 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 9+10 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 11+12 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 13+14 7 lbs. 10 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 15+16 7 lbs. 10 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 17+18 6 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 19+20 6 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 21+22 5 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 23+24 5 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 25+26 5 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 27+28 4 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 29+30 4 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
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= 6 months 113 lbs. lost
by clumping weeks into 2 at a time - I can adjust how much I can hope to lose per week to hit about 100 lbs weight loss total (my plan actually does 113) and this would assume that I lose a couple of lbs more before the big date.
Weeks 1+2 20 lbs. 6 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 3+4 10 lbs. 6 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 5+6 8 lbs. 7 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 7+8 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 9+10 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 11+12 8 lbs. 8 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 13+14 7 lbs. 10 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 15+16 7 lbs. 10 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 17+18 6 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 19+20 6 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 21+22 5 lbs. 12 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 23+24 5 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 25+26 5 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 27+28 4 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
Weeks 29+30 4 lbs. 13 hrs./ week work out
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= 6 months 113 lbs. lost
Jeans that fit (that were too small)
The jeans I had on yesterday were way too big on me- I need to get rid of them ASAP and replace them with fitting ones. The ones that I have on today are not too big-- and I'm so excited that they fit! They are size 18 I think and at one point I couldn't even zip them up! (that was 30 lbs ago). I'll have to wear these for a while until they are too big on me too.
I looked up all kinds of info on the Biggest Loser and found a bunch of girls that were starting out at about my weight/height/age and saw their stats week after week. I'd like to try to pace them after surgery. A few of them lost all of the weight in 17 weeks! Wow- that's amazing to me!
Today I ate a grilled chicken sandwich and some salad and drinking lots of water with Crystal lite in it. My water bottle is working out pretty well so far.
Tomorrow, I arranged for my mom to watch Evan overnight so that I can work out on Tuesday night and Weds morning as much as I want to -- I'm excited that I can get out when I need to and try to get a few more lbs off of me to make my big weigh in on Friday. I'm still so nervous about this weigh in. I really need to lose that last stupid 2 lbs. Its all riding on 2 lbs. Ugh!
I also have been dreaming about the weight melting off of me- that'll be awesome- I can't wait to start seeing under 200 lbs!! that will be a big happy day for me to be under 200 again- 199 - look out world! I'll be celebrating! ....with a banana smoothie or something. LOL
I am getting sick of people giving me 'tips' and advice on weight loss- its not the advice that I hate (OK well I hate that too) but its mostly WHO is giving me the advice. They are driving me nuts. I'm holding off telling anyone else about the surgery because I just don't wanna hear the blah blah blah anymore. 'you know, you need to.....' Really? So YOU have the secret to weight loss? Really? Have you looked in a mirror lately?
I met a girl on facebook that lost over 220 lbs-- now she's someone that I can take advice from- she obviously is doing something right. I don't know how long it took her to lose that- and I just met her so I don't think its really my business or anything- but I hope she can help inspire me to keep going. I know there will be points during all of this that I will really need some inspiration to keep on going and continuing with the weight loss.
I looked up all kinds of info on the Biggest Loser and found a bunch of girls that were starting out at about my weight/height/age and saw their stats week after week. I'd like to try to pace them after surgery. A few of them lost all of the weight in 17 weeks! Wow- that's amazing to me!
Today I ate a grilled chicken sandwich and some salad and drinking lots of water with Crystal lite in it. My water bottle is working out pretty well so far.
Tomorrow, I arranged for my mom to watch Evan overnight so that I can work out on Tuesday night and Weds morning as much as I want to -- I'm excited that I can get out when I need to and try to get a few more lbs off of me to make my big weigh in on Friday. I'm still so nervous about this weigh in. I really need to lose that last stupid 2 lbs. Its all riding on 2 lbs. Ugh!
I also have been dreaming about the weight melting off of me- that'll be awesome- I can't wait to start seeing under 200 lbs!! that will be a big happy day for me to be under 200 again- 199 - look out world! I'll be celebrating! ....with a banana smoothie or something. LOL
I am getting sick of people giving me 'tips' and advice on weight loss- its not the advice that I hate (OK well I hate that too) but its mostly WHO is giving me the advice. They are driving me nuts. I'm holding off telling anyone else about the surgery because I just don't wanna hear the blah blah blah anymore. 'you know, you need to.....' Really? So YOU have the secret to weight loss? Really? Have you looked in a mirror lately?
I met a girl on facebook that lost over 220 lbs-- now she's someone that I can take advice from- she obviously is doing something right. I don't know how long it took her to lose that- and I just met her so I don't think its really my business or anything- but I hope she can help inspire me to keep going. I know there will be points during all of this that I will really need some inspiration to keep on going and continuing with the weight loss.
The scale said 248 today
Woo hoo! 248 is a great sign- I need to be at 254 according to their scales on Friday. Add a lb or 2 for clothes and then 5 lbs for their scale differences and I should still make it... still nervous though!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
What to do with the old 'too big' clothes?
I would like to either a.) burn my old clothes, b.) or do something creative with them.
Maybe I can make a purse out of the old jeans or something? Or maybe 100 purses? (kidding) Hmmm, my creative wheels are turning in my head -- but now to just find the time to do all of these ideas that I have- that's always the problem. Not enough time!!
Maybe I can make a purse out of the old jeans or something? Or maybe 100 purses? (kidding) Hmmm, my creative wheels are turning in my head -- but now to just find the time to do all of these ideas that I have- that's always the problem. Not enough time!!
My pants are all too big
I have nothing that really fits well. All my fat girl clothes are too big (which is nice) but I'm running really low on stuff that fits me. I had one pair that actually fell off of me as I walked. (not good) Losing 30 lbs will do that I guess (still only counting one bracelet though is what I decided)
Today I'm at work- boo. I feel kinda sick. I have a stomach ache and its hot outside (75) and my car is a disaster. I did clean the downstairs of my house really well though- then my nephew was over and now its not as good. I woke up late again today. I'm having all kinds of issues sleeping at normal times. I lay in bed alot but not really sleeping well. I'm considering going on Ambien again- although it is kinda hard to get off of. I need to work out at least 4 times this week- I have no idea how I'm going to fit that into my week- but I have to -- somehow. I might need to have Paul watch Evan at work or have my mom watch him or something- we'll see.
I was investigating my protein drinks last night- they are PRICEY! But I guess if that's all you're drinking/eating all day its not that bad. Its going to cost $3 or $4 per day just for the protein and then the milk and water additives are another $4 a day and then the vitamins- so about $10 a day for nutrition. That seems high- so I wanna start buying stuff now when I can - and just try to get a little stock pile on it all. I'd like to be about a month ahead of my purchasing needs. That's the goal. We'll see how that goes. Its hard to drop $70 at once for a weeks worth of stuff... Lots of changes going on... lots!
Today I'm at work- boo. I feel kinda sick. I have a stomach ache and its hot outside (75) and my car is a disaster. I did clean the downstairs of my house really well though- then my nephew was over and now its not as good. I woke up late again today. I'm having all kinds of issues sleeping at normal times. I lay in bed alot but not really sleeping well. I'm considering going on Ambien again- although it is kinda hard to get off of. I need to work out at least 4 times this week- I have no idea how I'm going to fit that into my week- but I have to -- somehow. I might need to have Paul watch Evan at work or have my mom watch him or something- we'll see.
I was investigating my protein drinks last night- they are PRICEY! But I guess if that's all you're drinking/eating all day its not that bad. Its going to cost $3 or $4 per day just for the protein and then the milk and water additives are another $4 a day and then the vitamins- so about $10 a day for nutrition. That seems high- so I wanna start buying stuff now when I can - and just try to get a little stock pile on it all. I'd like to be about a month ahead of my purchasing needs. That's the goal. We'll see how that goes. Its hard to drop $70 at once for a weeks worth of stuff... Lots of changes going on... lots!
Friday, April 8, 2011
Cruisin' 50's Diner
I said I was going to eat bad and I did and it was goooood.
I had 'Lobster' Mac-n-Cheese. I also got soup and mashed potatoes with it, but the boys ate that since I was full. I drank a lot of water with MiO. When I got home I had one piece of bread with butter (whole grain). Now off to bed soon. I went over all of the class stuff with Paul today. This class actually didn't have 1/2 of the same stuff as the last class- the last class was so jammed with information that I was overwhelmed- this one wasn't like that at all. It had far less info - they skipped the whole part about how to properly get out of bed after surgery and all the rehab stuff involved.
I'm all carbed up and it feels pretty good. I think every now and then you just need some good old carbs to hit the spot. I'm kinda happy about it. I do need to go to sleep though- I barely slept last night (nervous about my weigh in) and had to leave the house really early to make it to Akron (55 miles away) by 9:00 AM. I got up around 6. I am beat! I don't even know if I slept at all last night.
Paul was lecturing me about how all of this was 'avoidable' and how he could've told me everything and got me to lose weight-- eye roll city. No comment. I'll blog about him and his involvement in my weight gain over the years at some other point. No, its not all 'his fault'- but he did play a role in it--- for sure!!
Off to bed----
I had 'Lobster' Mac-n-Cheese. I also got soup and mashed potatoes with it, but the boys ate that since I was full. I drank a lot of water with MiO. When I got home I had one piece of bread with butter (whole grain). Now off to bed soon. I went over all of the class stuff with Paul today. This class actually didn't have 1/2 of the same stuff as the last class- the last class was so jammed with information that I was overwhelmed- this one wasn't like that at all. It had far less info - they skipped the whole part about how to properly get out of bed after surgery and all the rehab stuff involved.
I'm all carbed up and it feels pretty good. I think every now and then you just need some good old carbs to hit the spot. I'm kinda happy about it. I do need to go to sleep though- I barely slept last night (nervous about my weigh in) and had to leave the house really early to make it to Akron (55 miles away) by 9:00 AM. I got up around 6. I am beat! I don't even know if I slept at all last night.
Paul was lecturing me about how all of this was 'avoidable' and how he could've told me everything and got me to lose weight-- eye roll city. No comment. I'll blog about him and his involvement in my weight gain over the years at some other point. No, its not all 'his fault'- but he did play a role in it--- for sure!!
Off to bed----
Ugh!
Today I had my class and then my big weigh in. I found out that my scale is about 5 lbs off from theirs. Their scale said I weighed 256. I have another week to lose that other 2 lbs. -- I was ticked. I've been doing GREAT eating. Really really good (almost perfect even) and to be off by 2 lbs was disappointing. Tonight, I am taking a night off from my diet and then back to slamming it tomorrow- whoa whoa whoa- Kim- what are you doing? Yep- I'm doing it. I'm tired of eating rabbit food and then not 'going' and then not losing anything. I took Senecot (laxative) TWICE this week in large quantities even and nothing happened. That's messed up. maybe if I eat some carbs and crap it will help everything move again? Plus I need to just feel normal tonight.
The class itself went well- there were 3 really nice girls in there all about my age and size- I'm hoping that I see them in support meetings or whatever because I could actually see us keeping in touch for support or whatever. Our class had a ton of people in it- one guy (who was 350+ maybe over 400) and then the rest of the class was the 4 younger women and the rest were older women. About 4 of them looked exactly the same to me- that was weird. Two older women were in BAD shape (canes, oxygen, etc) The younger women were all in good shape just heavy. One girl almost didn't seem big enough to go thru surgery- she must hide her weight well. She has to weigh at least 240 to qualify-- so I'm sure she is big enough- just didn't look it to me.
Some people asked me if I was pre or post op-- LOL. PRE-- you think I wanna look like this POST?? I guess since some people are mega huge you really can't assume where anyone else is in the process.
7 more days to drop 2 lbs. The dietician gave me a menu plan for a week that will help me lose 7 lbs in one week. I really think its a matter of things 'moving'. I'm really discouraged about that.
Since I mentioned things moving-- I've always had an issue with things going slowly my whole life- I've taken laxatives, fiber, all kinds of things and I blame my weight gain in part to slow moving pipes. Its hereditary- yipee. When I get thin I might have to be on some kind of fiber plan to combat that. Who knows how the pipes will work after surgery... After my gall bladder came out I was RUNNING to the bathroom sometimes after eating any million different trigger foods. Later on I'll summarize what we learned in the class. I'll need it for reference.
Crap- I was really worried about my weigh in today- shaking at times even and I missed it by so little- I'm a bit upset about that- but glad I have another week to make the weight.
The class itself went well- there were 3 really nice girls in there all about my age and size- I'm hoping that I see them in support meetings or whatever because I could actually see us keeping in touch for support or whatever. Our class had a ton of people in it- one guy (who was 350+ maybe over 400) and then the rest of the class was the 4 younger women and the rest were older women. About 4 of them looked exactly the same to me- that was weird. Two older women were in BAD shape (canes, oxygen, etc) The younger women were all in good shape just heavy. One girl almost didn't seem big enough to go thru surgery- she must hide her weight well. She has to weigh at least 240 to qualify-- so I'm sure she is big enough- just didn't look it to me.
Some people asked me if I was pre or post op-- LOL. PRE-- you think I wanna look like this POST?? I guess since some people are mega huge you really can't assume where anyone else is in the process.
7 more days to drop 2 lbs. The dietician gave me a menu plan for a week that will help me lose 7 lbs in one week. I really think its a matter of things 'moving'. I'm really discouraged about that.
Since I mentioned things moving-- I've always had an issue with things going slowly my whole life- I've taken laxatives, fiber, all kinds of things and I blame my weight gain in part to slow moving pipes. Its hereditary- yipee. When I get thin I might have to be on some kind of fiber plan to combat that. Who knows how the pipes will work after surgery... After my gall bladder came out I was RUNNING to the bathroom sometimes after eating any million different trigger foods. Later on I'll summarize what we learned in the class. I'll need it for reference.
Crap- I was really worried about my weigh in today- shaking at times even and I missed it by so little- I'm a bit upset about that- but glad I have another week to make the weight.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Tomorrow is the big weigh in!
I am kinda nervous about it. I weighed 252 this morning. I took Senecot twice this week with nothing happening afterwards- that's not good. I'll be basically fasting today with lots of water and then taking some water pills to get any excess water off of me-- so hopefully with clothes on tomorrow I can slide just under the 254 mark and be approved for this surgery. I kinda just woke up today too-- I kept falling back asleep and I really started to get good sleep after Paul left- he was snoring so loud that I thought Evan was whispering 'Mom' to me so I popped up out of a fast sleep many times last night. I had all kinds of vivid dreams last night. That means I actually got into a deep enough sleep- yay. I think I'm worrying a lot lately about all of this and not sleeping so great. I worry a little about each thing along the way.
I have no idea if I blogged about this yet or not- but yesterday I finally got my leave rep to confirm that I have enough time for the past year accrued to qualify for FMLA for the surgery. She kept saying 'yes, you're covered don't worry about it...' but she was answering the WRONG question. I have TWO FMLA cases. One open now and one opening tomorrow- she kept answering for the first one and I wanted to punch her in the face. She said 'you aren't understanding my answer.' I said 'no, YOU aren't understanding my question.' I hear your retarded answer that you're giving me that is 100% wrong-- just listen with ears and not your butt for a minute and answer the right ricka racka question. I hate HR people. They all are crap. Fortunately I've been on FMLA before so I know how they are now. My last leave rep died recently so I have a new one. Otherwise they said I'd have had her again. (she was just awful). This new one was seeming better until this whole last week long phone tag email tag fiasco. Her numbers she is giving me don't make any kind of sense either- I did my own numbers to the date and mine were way different than hers were. She ran hers by the pay period- so that's part of the difference- but I still think she did something wrong- anyways - It's approved and the case is started so I won't beat that to death anymore. I hate when people tell me I'm wrong about something when I know for a fact that I am not wrong.
Off to drink some nice water and either find or buy water pills- I really think they will help for tomorrow. I'll do anything to qualify for this. I really want this.
I have no idea if I blogged about this yet or not- but yesterday I finally got my leave rep to confirm that I have enough time for the past year accrued to qualify for FMLA for the surgery. She kept saying 'yes, you're covered don't worry about it...' but she was answering the WRONG question. I have TWO FMLA cases. One open now and one opening tomorrow- she kept answering for the first one and I wanted to punch her in the face. She said 'you aren't understanding my answer.' I said 'no, YOU aren't understanding my question.' I hear your retarded answer that you're giving me that is 100% wrong-- just listen with ears and not your butt for a minute and answer the right ricka racka question. I hate HR people. They all are crap. Fortunately I've been on FMLA before so I know how they are now. My last leave rep died recently so I have a new one. Otherwise they said I'd have had her again. (she was just awful). This new one was seeming better until this whole last week long phone tag email tag fiasco. Her numbers she is giving me don't make any kind of sense either- I did my own numbers to the date and mine were way different than hers were. She ran hers by the pay period- so that's part of the difference- but I still think she did something wrong- anyways - It's approved and the case is started so I won't beat that to death anymore. I hate when people tell me I'm wrong about something when I know for a fact that I am not wrong.
Off to drink some nice water and either find or buy water pills- I really think they will help for tomorrow. I'll do anything to qualify for this. I really want this.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Sleep study stuff
Going to sleep in a hospital over an hour away from my house wasn't super awful- but I did miss my bed! Oh, and the guys here too. I hardly slept there. I might have to go back- we'll see. There are 2 reasons why I would have to go again. 1. not enough data for them to read 2. I have sleep apnea and they need to find treatment for me. Hopefully I don't have to go back- but I am fully expecting them to tell me to come back at some point soon. Next time I'll take an Ambien (they give them out) --although Ambien does do something to me- it makes me very uh, well I hit on Paul in my sleep when I'm on that stuff. I of course have no recollection of it- so would that be good to take while I'm on camera? Maybe not. I did take an Excedrin PM while I was there but she took so long to get me hooked up to the wires that it kinda wore off by the time it was time for sleep.
The girl that did the test 'Aimee' was 6-1/2 months pregnant with her second child. This one is a boy and the first is a girl. We got to know each other pretty well last night. There was also a guy there that kinda resembled Vin Diesel a little (if you squint and he lost weight and didn't work out)- I'm glad I didn't have the guy hooking me up to all that stuff in my PJs.
When I got up in the morning, I filled out a questionaire- they detached all the junk from me and I got dressed, cleaned up and left. I went to McDonalds this morning (very bad Kim) but I ate Apples and then a little other stuff not quite as good- but I didn't go too far overboard. The rest of today is slamming water, soup and salad. I still weigh under the goal- so I should be fine for Fridays big weigh in.
I watched 'The Biggest Loser' last night on TV- I almost never watch TV- but there was nothing else to do there last night - so I did. I hate how the show is so contrived and they play loud emotion inducing music to try to get a response out of the audience. aside from that though- some of the contestants have lost over 100 lbs in 17 weeks. That's pretty cool. I might get a season of BL and try to 'compete' with them privately. I guess they work out SEVEN HOURS per day!! Wow!! 7? Can I ever do that? It doesn't sound possible right now to me. - but maybe its something to shoot for.
Now, I need Paul to find seasons 1-?? of the Biggest loser and see what their numbers were per week and their exercise regiments were. From what I saw last night with them yelling out 'last chance workout' every 5 seconds (how annoying is that?) they make them do all kinds of cross training and they work them really hard. Whatever it takes.
The girl that did the test 'Aimee' was 6-1/2 months pregnant with her second child. This one is a boy and the first is a girl. We got to know each other pretty well last night. There was also a guy there that kinda resembled Vin Diesel a little (if you squint and he lost weight and didn't work out)- I'm glad I didn't have the guy hooking me up to all that stuff in my PJs.
When I got up in the morning, I filled out a questionaire- they detached all the junk from me and I got dressed, cleaned up and left. I went to McDonalds this morning (very bad Kim) but I ate Apples and then a little other stuff not quite as good- but I didn't go too far overboard. The rest of today is slamming water, soup and salad. I still weigh under the goal- so I should be fine for Fridays big weigh in.
I watched 'The Biggest Loser' last night on TV- I almost never watch TV- but there was nothing else to do there last night - so I did. I hate how the show is so contrived and they play loud emotion inducing music to try to get a response out of the audience. aside from that though- some of the contestants have lost over 100 lbs in 17 weeks. That's pretty cool. I might get a season of BL and try to 'compete' with them privately. I guess they work out SEVEN HOURS per day!! Wow!! 7? Can I ever do that? It doesn't sound possible right now to me. - but maybe its something to shoot for.
Now, I need Paul to find seasons 1-?? of the Biggest loser and see what their numbers were per week and their exercise regiments were. From what I saw last night with them yelling out 'last chance workout' every 5 seconds (how annoying is that?) they make them do all kinds of cross training and they work them really hard. Whatever it takes.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Sleep apnea test tonight!
Yippee. I get to drive to Akron tonight and sleep alone in an unfamiliar bed and be awoken at 7:30 AM. (middle of the night to me since I work later). Paul says I have sleep apnea (like he knows) but if I do I guess they sell you some very pricey sleep gear... not looking forward to that at all. My mom has the machine and all that and its loud and annoying... I guess in the hospital you have to bring your sleep apnea stuff with you. They tell everyone that, as if every fat person has sleep apnea. I know zero about it. I don't really want to find out about it either because I doubt I'll ever wear that stupid mask for sleeping. Its just a step to get approved for surgery- nothing more to me. Lots of appointments coming up this month.
The scale went up a hair. Last night I ate 2 pieces of whole grain bread with butter and had a plain grilled chicken sandwich. I did bad- but I was craving that so bad. The scale now says 252. Ugh! So now its more focus focus focus for the next couple days until the big weigh in on Friday. I'm still under 254 (which is all I need to be at for them) and that's even in the middle of the day and clothed... so hopefully all is still well with that. I'm not too worried today about it.
Things haven't been moving much lately so I took a handful of Senecot last night. Needless to say today I had a horrible stomach ache -- but nothing really happening still. Fantastic. Just please don't 'kick in' while I'm having my sleep study. My mom said they have to come in the room to remove junk off your head every time you try to get out of the bed to pee or anything. Fantastic. Just what I need- an audience while I pee.
I hope this sleep test goes ok and just gets over with. The more I think about it the more I don't want to do it. I know I have to though- so that's the only thing keeping my appt right now.
The scale went up a hair. Last night I ate 2 pieces of whole grain bread with butter and had a plain grilled chicken sandwich. I did bad- but I was craving that so bad. The scale now says 252. Ugh! So now its more focus focus focus for the next couple days until the big weigh in on Friday. I'm still under 254 (which is all I need to be at for them) and that's even in the middle of the day and clothed... so hopefully all is still well with that. I'm not too worried today about it.
Things haven't been moving much lately so I took a handful of Senecot last night. Needless to say today I had a horrible stomach ache -- but nothing really happening still. Fantastic. Just please don't 'kick in' while I'm having my sleep study. My mom said they have to come in the room to remove junk off your head every time you try to get out of the bed to pee or anything. Fantastic. Just what I need- an audience while I pee.
I hope this sleep test goes ok and just gets over with. The more I think about it the more I don't want to do it. I know I have to though- so that's the only thing keeping my appt right now.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Woo hoo!
This morning I was really excited that the scale said 248.6-- then I weighed myself again and it said 251.2-- oh well- really really close to being under 250- It'll happen- soon!
The reason I'm excited is because today was full of pretty good news for me-
1. I got news that my FMLA hours are at 1270 and I need 1250 to be approved. (talk about cutting it close!)
2. I talked to Kellie today (surgeons assistant) and she scheduled me an appt for my follow up with Dr. Chlysta on Tuesday, May 3rd at 3:00. This is the date that I should be able to schedule my surgery date with him!!!
3. All of the paperwork is complete and they are submitting everything to the insurance company this week- Kellie said it takes 1-2 weeks to hear back from them on the approval--
So things are really moving now!! I get my big weigh in this Friday- so that means really continuing to do perfectly over the next few days with the cabbage soup diet and trying to work out a bit too. I would love to be at 244 by Friday- is that possible? Hmmm- maybe. I'd have to really work hard though for that.
Well, I'm excited excited excited!! I can't wait to have the surgery, recover, and start losing tons of weight-- I really want to be thin again! :)
The reason I'm excited is because today was full of pretty good news for me-
1. I got news that my FMLA hours are at 1270 and I need 1250 to be approved. (talk about cutting it close!)
2. I talked to Kellie today (surgeons assistant) and she scheduled me an appt for my follow up with Dr. Chlysta on Tuesday, May 3rd at 3:00. This is the date that I should be able to schedule my surgery date with him!!!
3. All of the paperwork is complete and they are submitting everything to the insurance company this week- Kellie said it takes 1-2 weeks to hear back from them on the approval--
So things are really moving now!! I get my big weigh in this Friday- so that means really continuing to do perfectly over the next few days with the cabbage soup diet and trying to work out a bit too. I would love to be at 244 by Friday- is that possible? Hmmm- maybe. I'd have to really work hard though for that.
Well, I'm excited excited excited!! I can't wait to have the surgery, recover, and start losing tons of weight-- I really want to be thin again! :)
Sunday, April 3, 2011
I'm so close to being under 250...
this morning the scale said 251.6 or whatever the number was after the point. I bought myself a second bracelet for the upcoming next 10 lbs. I have no idea why I'm listing my weight now- but I will-- 264 was my starting point with the medical team. I think my highest weight ever was 280 (yikes!!) that's when I decided to have the surgery- there was no way I'd ever get to 300 anything. That would be beyond ridiculous (not that 250 isn't ridiculous).
Tonight I had salad and more salad and some steak (steak at home). I'm not following the cabbage soup diet 100% anymore. I'm making adjustments to it a little- but still sticking with the foods that they allow you to eat (fruits, veggies, bananas, a little meat and lots of soup). I made a second batch of soup today but haven't eaten any yet today.
My second bracelet I got at Drug Mart tonight. It's silver toned and really thin - I figure if I have 13 bracelets on they need to be kinda on the thin side. Maybe one or two can be larger- but most need to be thin so I can fit them all on there.
Tuesday is my sleep apnea test- that's exciting that something is finally moving forward for me with the process.
I got my bracelet today for free with a $25 gift card from Drug Mart- I bought strawberries, bananas, salad mix, and a few other things with the card too.
I went to Wendy's because I wanted something with 'substance' to it- so I got a pecan chicken salad (1/2 size) no dressing. The tiny bit of chicken on it was really good and I think I miss meat a bit.
I hope tomorrow the scale moves to under 250- I will be so excited.
My mom saw me yesterday and said my pants were too big- woo hoo! They used to be kinda tightish on me- alot of my clothes are starting (just a little) to be too big- I can't wait til they are all too big. I'll probably burn all my fat clothes. I never want to see them again after I'm too small for them. Eh, maybe I'll give them away- who knows...
Tonight I had salad and more salad and some steak (steak at home). I'm not following the cabbage soup diet 100% anymore. I'm making adjustments to it a little- but still sticking with the foods that they allow you to eat (fruits, veggies, bananas, a little meat and lots of soup). I made a second batch of soup today but haven't eaten any yet today.
My second bracelet I got at Drug Mart tonight. It's silver toned and really thin - I figure if I have 13 bracelets on they need to be kinda on the thin side. Maybe one or two can be larger- but most need to be thin so I can fit them all on there.
Tuesday is my sleep apnea test- that's exciting that something is finally moving forward for me with the process.
I got my bracelet today for free with a $25 gift card from Drug Mart- I bought strawberries, bananas, salad mix, and a few other things with the card too.
I went to Wendy's because I wanted something with 'substance' to it- so I got a pecan chicken salad (1/2 size) no dressing. The tiny bit of chicken on it was really good and I think I miss meat a bit.
I hope tomorrow the scale moves to under 250- I will be so excited.
My mom saw me yesterday and said my pants were too big- woo hoo! They used to be kinda tightish on me- alot of my clothes are starting (just a little) to be too big- I can't wait til they are all too big. I'll probably burn all my fat clothes. I never want to see them again after I'm too small for them. Eh, maybe I'll give them away- who knows...
Friday, April 1, 2011
Confusing math...
My highest weight of my life (which may or may not be accurate because it was on the scale that is always way higher than all other scales-- I need to throw that one out) anyways- the highest weight of my life is currently 29 lbs higher than I weigh now. I have no idea what number I'm going to use. That one?, the one from when I first set foot in the Dr.s office? I have no idea. Is that largest number accurate? It will make for a much bigger 'wow' at the end of all this seeing that higher number- which is about 20 lbs give or take.
Hmm, I have no idea what numbers I'm going to use as my starting number. I need to figure it out though and kinda quick.
Hmm, I have no idea what numbers I'm going to use as my starting number. I need to figure it out though and kinda quick.
I bought my first bracelet!!
I went to Kohl's on lunch and got a nice little silver bracelet that was on sale for 60% off and an additional 15% off- normally $50- but paid $18 for it after tax. It's totally worth $18 (not $50)
Today I ate:
1 bowl of cabbage soup
carrot sticks
blackberries
5 16 oz waters with MiO (so far)
Still riding high from the scale reading today-- yay. I even emailed the team at AGH to let them know about it and they responded with a 'great job' kind of an email back. :)
I also made an appt with my Dr for Thursday April 14th at 10:45. This is a pre-op screening of everything with me. Its kinda one of the last things before they submit for approvals. Then I guess I have to wait for the insurance company to say yes they wull pay for the rest of it after all the paperwork is submitted. I have a feeling that part is going to be the worst part of the entire process.
Today I ate:
1 bowl of cabbage soup
carrot sticks
blackberries
5 16 oz waters with MiO (so far)
Still riding high from the scale reading today-- yay. I even emailed the team at AGH to let them know about it and they responded with a 'great job' kind of an email back. :)
I also made an appt with my Dr for Thursday April 14th at 10:45. This is a pre-op screening of everything with me. Its kinda one of the last things before they submit for approvals. Then I guess I have to wait for the insurance company to say yes they wull pay for the rest of it after all the paperwork is submitted. I have a feeling that part is going to be the worst part of the entire process.
MY FIRST BRACELET!!!
I didn't actually buy a bracelet yet- but I earned one today-- I met my weight goal for surgery- woo hoo!!! I'm still going to diet til the weigh in like crazy though because I want a little extra insurance for the weigh in. I'm so excited that the scale is down 10 lbs now-- yippee!!!!!
Yesterday I ate:
1 bowl of soup
a big salad at WL - then got a bowl of just lettuce again. I got everything on the side and used just a drop of cheese and the dressing- I gave the croutons and the bacon all away to the guys.
I had lots of water with MiO drink mix in it.
I'm so excited that I made my weight goal-- now to focus on the next 10 lbs.
Update: Right before I got in the tub, I weighed myself again and it said 2 lbs lower-- my clothes weighed 2 lbs? I doubt that- but hey, I'll take a move on the scale again if it gets me 2 lbs closer to my next 10 - I mean 8 to go! :)
Yesterday I ate:
1 bowl of soup
a big salad at WL - then got a bowl of just lettuce again. I got everything on the side and used just a drop of cheese and the dressing- I gave the croutons and the bacon all away to the guys.
I had lots of water with MiO drink mix in it.
I'm so excited that I made my weight goal-- now to focus on the next 10 lbs.
Update: Right before I got in the tub, I weighed myself again and it said 2 lbs lower-- my clothes weighed 2 lbs? I doubt that- but hey, I'll take a move on the scale again if it gets me 2 lbs closer to my next 10 - I mean 8 to go! :)
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